Since October of last year, I have been having lots of difficulties with high blood pressure. Since I am obviously young, and I'm physically active, and I try to watch what I eat- the doctors are very baffled as to why I am having this re-occurring problem. Not only that, but about 4 weeks ago I was diagnosed with an ovarian cyst, and since then it has ruptured, but the pain hasn't gone away. In fact, I'd say that I have a pretty high pain tolerance, but this pain isn't tolerable. They've given me morphine-like drugs, but as one could imagine, it's really hard to function on them especially when working with toddlers mon-fri. I finally saw my primary doctor today, and she decided that they are going to perform a CAT scan. And while they are trying to figure out this high blood pressure, in the meantime I have been perscribed a medication for it. I feel like an old woman!! It's just a little discouraging because these problems that I am having aren't resolving on their own, which has resulted in a semester that has gone down the drain! Please keep these things in prayer if you remember. I am feeling a bit aprehensive about it all, especially because it is getting in the way of daily life.

I love Xanga because of the fact that there is more to it than just a boring old screen with pictures and status updates.. it's a tool to use to actually see where everyone is at in life, and how life is actually going! I decided to start a new weblog to do just that! So here it is... Proabably not very interesting, but I have some kind of hope that this is just one of life's MANY transitions.

Where to begin?!? Well, I guess I'll start with work. I was Nannying for a family, but it turned out the the wife (a psycho-psychologist), was indeed crazy, so after only working there 6 months, I decided to quit. I am now working for someone I've known for a while, at her daycare. (can't seem to flee far from the kiddies). There has been alot going on. When I was in Belfast, my Grandma was having alot of health problems. Well, things haven't been going very well. Last week she was admitted into ICU (Intensive Care Unit) (after many previous epidodes to hopsital stays), and was there for 2.5 weeks. She has blood clots, and so one thing after the next has been failing. She's finally at home now, but hospice is coming and our family has hired a live-in nurse to take care of her. It's hard accepting that her hom may be in Heaven at any time now, but it's also a relief knowing that she'll be in such a better place, with her Lord. That's the only thing that makes death bareable is knowing that your loved one is going to Heaven... a place with beauty and abundance that we can't even imagine. It's just dealing with not having them here, on the earth with you anymore that's hard to come to terms with, but I do have a peace about it. And, I am praying that if God wants to take her home, that he would do so, and that there wouldn't be any suffering. But if  he wants her to be here, that he would heal her body so she's not in pain.  I was also in the hosptial last week, yet again they found another ovarian cyst. And because of it, I missed alot of school... so needless to say, I was withdrawn from one of my classes (it's unfourtunate that some professors are pretty heartless)... It is discouraging to know that this semester was pretty much of a waste (as far as school is concerned). I am trying to get the strenght to begin gain. I know that the summer will really be an enormous help- that way I'll have alot of time to think about what classes i'll continue with (etc.)   My good friend Ali (whose graduating for college this month), and I always said that we're going to take a trip together, so we've decided to do so this summer! Our plans are to visit Belfast for a bit, fly to Scotland, and then to Austria (or another Euro place:) Suggestions are warmly welcomed!! It's going to be good to get away...far away, just for a breather!

Trying to keep my "chin up"... gotta keep on, keepin on eh!!